Saturday, January 29, 2011

Hold On To Me Tonight

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outfit: chiffon ruffle top -- h&m; cardigan -- gap; skirt -- j crew; shoes -- marais usa; headband -- f21

Hello!
This is what I ended up wearing for our anniversary on Wednesday. My UO order didn't come in time so I had to go with my back-up outfit. The outfit isn't not too dressy, but then again, I'm not the type to dress up too formally. I mean for my wedding all I want to wear is a white maxi dress and go barefoot on my beach wedding with some flowers or a bow in my hair. But my wedding won't be for a long while, back to my anniversary outfit: I transitioned it to a night look by changing into heels and adding my sweater blazer over it. We had a stupendous evening! Robert made reservations at an Oceanfront restaurant that had delicious seafood and an indescribably amazing creme brulee! We then took a night walk along the beach, gazed at the stars, and had good conversations. It was short and sweet, but I'm glad we got to celebrate in the midst of our busy schedules.

My blog has been on my mind recently--a little too much. I don't know what has gotten into me this week: I've become this crazed maniac taking advantage of the situation that Robert needed a ride to school and forcing him to take photos for me before I drop him off (I usually use a tripod). And then when we're together at night, I use his phone to check my blog. I really don't know what possessed me. I think it's because recently instead of being inspired by other bloggers and blogs, I've become jealous, competitive, and insecure. It's an ugly side of me and I hate it. It serves me right to have lost a few followers this week. That is why I'm going to take a few days off of blogging--just so I can reevaluate why I want to blog (and I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled out today...). I need to get back to this feeling. Sometimes I feel so silly being so serious over something that really isn't supposed to be so serious anyway, but whether I like it or not, over the past year, blogging has become such a huge part of my life: I'd just like to be for the right reasons and enjoyable again. I think I just need a break from the internet in general. I'm involved in way too many social medias: Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter, and blogging. It eats up at my free time. I want to detoxify by spending a week in a log cabin in the woods.

Until next post,
Jasmine

6 comments:

  1. I hope you figure out your blogging dilemma soon, you're easily becoming a daily read haha.

    Love it!

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  2. First of all, you look gorgeous with your hair curled like that. Do it more often! Second of all, I love how adorable you look in this outfit. It's a nice change of pace not having your top tucked into your skirt. I'm glad you had such a lovely time celebrating your 4-year with Robert (it's crazy - FOUR years!) :)

    And I know what you're talking about with blogging. I have moments where I feel the exact way you do now every so often. I always feel a little bit bitter when I lose a follower then I realize it really doesn't matter. As long as you love what you're doing then it shouldn't matter what other people think. Stay positive and definitely take a break from all this :) <3

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  3. You are one of the most inspiring bloggers on the web: remember that! Everyone's style is different and as long as you're happy with the writing, shooting, and layout processing, that's all that counts.

    Your feelings are natural so don't get so down on yourself.

    And I wish I could steal those shoes <3--Margaret

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  4. Hope you had a wonderful anniversary! Sounds so beautiful :) Oh dear, I'm sorry you've been feeling that way about blogging, but perhaps you're right, you need to just take a break to detoxify. Blogging should be fun and not just a job or task, and it's not a competition! Don't forget the blogging community is totally behind you; everyone feels this way from time to time, I know I do!

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  5. I think it is good, it isnt a bad habit to have :p and it keeps you creative!

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  6. That's exactly how I like celebrating anniversaries. nothing particularly fancy or over-the-top -- just the two of you with good food and easy conversation. (:

    Oh, Jasmine. That really is a common dilemma among bloggers. I can't tell you how many times I've re-evaluated my blog and my feelings toward it. But somehow, in the end, I always go back to it. Because I think the good really outweigh the bad. You just gotta get back in the groove! When all else fails, remember why you started blogging in the first place and how you'd feel without it. Good luck dear. xx

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