Whole Heartedly

 

Lately, I've been feeling like I've been doing everything half-heartedly: work, school, dieting, blogging, and my relationships. I'm getting nowhere this way. I must admit I rarely give my all to something because I'm so much more afraid of success than I am of failure. I'm kind of used to failure. I am a pessimistic, cup-half-empty kinda person. But last year, I found myself actually throwing myself into the things that I cared about, which resulted in me losing 25 pounds and finding a job and career that I truly love. On Friday, I was accepted by the other grad school I had applied to--UCI, which is ranked a lot higher than CSUF!

I went to UCI as an undergrad, and I know I didn't give it my all when I was there: I didn't really go to class, and I didn't really get involved in any clubs or with many people. I just didn't care because I didn't really like my major. As I've said before, I stumbled into teaching my last quarters as an undergrad. Once I found that passion in my life, everything changed. My life became more focused and purposeful. I decided to graduate early a year early, and have been working hard these past two years to make up for those awful three years as an undergraduate. To be given this second chance at UCI makes all those hard days at work, and 10-hour days of working and going to school so worth it! This reminder of all the hard work I've put in has woken me up from my old habit of doing things half-heartedly.

Now I'm not sure which school I will choose as I have to look into the programs more closely, but what I do know is that I'm going to try to do things more whole-heartedly.

Until next post,
Jasmine

striped top - thrifted

sailboat skirt - francesca's collections
belt - topshop
loafers - aldo
sunglasses - raybans
watch - nordstroms