Just Give Me a Reason

I'm back--with brighter jeans and an old pair of oxfords! I can't say that my blog posts won't continue to be spotty over the next month, but I don't think I'm quite ready to say goodbye to the ole blog quite yet. Even after three years, it still continues to be my escape from life and my outlet for creative expression. That is not to say that there hasn't been an uncomfortable and unspoken pressure to maintain a certain kind of and level of content, which is why I felt the need to step away for a while. Nicole said it best in her most recent post: Blogging makes me care about things that I normally wouldn't care about. Because in real life, does it matter how my clothes will photograph? Does it matter that I don't have a boyfriend to take flattering, editorial photos for me? Or that I don't live in a place that has cool backdrops for a post? Does it matter that I wore jeans in my last post? No! Because I actually love where I live. Because I buy clothes for how they feel and fit, not how they photograph. Because I am enjoying being single right now. And because jeans are just what I want to wear everyday. I needed to remind myself that this is just a blog. It should reflect my life, not run it.

With that being said, my life has been crazy busy as of late! As exhausting and draining as student teaching is, it has been absolutely wonderful and so fulfilling. Nearing the end of this placement, I've been doing a lot of reflection of how far we--my students and I--have come since the very first day of school. In a few short weeks, I'm going to have say goodbye to my third graders and hello to a new class to finish out the rest of this school year. To say that I really don't want to leave is an understatement. I've grown so attached to my students that the thought of leaving them just breaks my heart. As part of my credential, I need to complete and pass this monstrous project called the Teaching Event for which I need to plan, write, analyze, reflect, and film myself teach a whole math unit. I started filming my geometry unit on Thursday and my students have just been amazing. I cannot wait until this thing is turned in at the end of March. I'm also just overwhelmed with how quickly time seems to be passing by recently. I only have three weeks left of this quarter, fifteen until I complete my credential, and about twenty until I'm done with this program. My brother is already planning on how he's gonna use my room when I'm gone. I don't even know where I'm going to end up in the Fall and that makes me so anxious. I've been such a hermit this past week--swamped with schoolwork and just thinking a lot about everything--that it was really nice escaping to Disneyland for a few hours yesterday with my friend, Andrea. I wore all my favorite things as of late: colored denim, easy black tops, and this denim jacket.

Until next post,

Jasmine

denim jacket - gap

top - forever 21

jeans - gap

shoes - urban outfitters

headband - forever 21

photos by me and andrea